From @ Sat Nov 16 06:17:58 1996
The Fields Where We Found Each Other  part 1/2  NC17  
by Yonada
yonada@hotmail.com
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Spoilers:  None

Disclaimers:  The characters and situations of the television program 
"The X Files" 
are the creations and property of Chris Carter, Fox Broadcasting, and 
Ten-Thirteen Productions, and have been used without permission. 
No copyright infringement is intended. 

Rating: NC17.

Relationshipers warning:  Mulder and Scully romance ahead be warned.

Note from the author: This is in response to TFWID challenge.  
I know it wasn't supposed to get really mushy but I couldn't help it.  
It's just the way I am I can't resist the romance of it all.
Or maybe I just really need to get a life.
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The Fields Where We Found Each Other   (NC17)
Yonada
yonada@hotmail.com
10/96

Apison Tennessee 
Nov. 7 01:30
Blue and Gray Inn
Dana Scully's room

"Dana ...If hum, Early in the four years that we've been working
together. An event occurred that suggested or somebody told you that...
we'd been friends together... in other lifetimes... Always. Would it have
changed some of the ways we looked at one another?"

"Even if I knew for certain I wouldn't change a day... well maybe the fluke man
 thing I could've lived without that just fine."

"You were there, you saw it, you heard it.  Why can't you feel it?"

"Souls come back together, different, but always together to learn."

"Love souls mate eternal."

Dana Scully thrashed in a restless sleep. The events of the past few
days made sleep almost impossible. The bodies piled everywhere, the
children... the sight of her partner kneeling in the middle of it all,
alive thank god. Watching him mourn a woman he didn't even know, but
seemed so certain he had known before
.
If that were true what did it mean?  If Sara/Melissa was he soulmate what did 
that mean now that she was dead?  How did it explain how she had always felt 
about her partner.  Was it true they had always been together, but always as 
friends. Why did that feel not quite right?

She mumbled and tossed the sheets tangling around her.  She called his name 
softly almost a cry.  Why did it bother her so much to think someone else was 
his soulmate.  She didn't believe any of this, did she?

Her sleep changed, shifted and she slipped into a dream.  In the dream she was 
searching for him...  He was missing... she couldn't find him...  She was 
running... frantic...  Where was he?...  she needed him... needed to find him...  
She called out his name "Sullie!"...  She ran on more confused and frightened.

Then she was in a field, walking down to a lake.  She saw someone sitting by 
the water.  It was a woman.  Even from behind the figure was familiar.  
Melissa, her sister, Melissa.

"Missy?"

"Dana." She turned smiling and rose to embrace her younger sister.
"Missy... I've missed you so much. I'm so sorry." She was crying and
smiling; wanting to tell her sister all the things that had been left
unsaid. "It should have been me. It was me they were after."

"Shhh... Dana its all right.  I'm all right.  None of it was your fault.  
It was my time to go, not yours.  You still have much to do."

"But Missy... this is just a dream isn't it?"

"Dana.  You know this feels different than a dream.  Don't make me waste our 
time trying to convince you that this isn't something your mind is making up."

"How can this be real?"

"Dana,   Dana little sister only you would argue with a dream about it's 
reality."  She laughed and hugged her sister again, then pulling Dana by the 
hand, starting walking down by the water.

"Dana there is much you need to know and you need to pay attention so that you 
will remember it when you wake up.  I know how confused you are by what has
 happened the past few days.  Fox with that woman.  Don't let that worry you."

"Missy, is it true that she is his soulmate?"

"There are many kinds of soulmates Dana.  This is what you need to remember.  
Groups of souls reincarnate together; going through lifetimes learning and 
bonding in different ways.  Some are together every time, some only in passing.  
They were together this time in passing and it is true that there were
times when they shared a great love, but it never worked. The passion was
quick and the love fiery, but it always ended in disaster. That was the
experience for them; the lesson to be learned. Perhaps they will choose
to change that lesson at some point. "

"Missy I have to ask you something else.  When Mulder was regressed he saw 
Cancerman, how ?  ... how could he have been there in 1938 and then be as old 
as he is now?  Was Mulder wrong about who he was?"

"Time is only linear from your perspective Dana.  Here, where we are now, time 
doesn't exist as you understand it. There is no past or future, it is all now.  
Circular. It is has already happened it is happening, it hasn't happened
yet. So from that perspective he could have been at the end of one life and
at the beginning of another. His is a soul stuck in an obsession of power
and darkness; greed and ambition."

"But...?"

"No shh... listen.   Your bond with Fox, that's what you need to find; search it out."

"Can't you tell me?"

"No, if I did, when you wake up you would pass it all off as a dream.  
Seek it out, get him to regress you.  He can do it.  See what you find.  
I love you little sister.  Don't be so sad.  It wasn't your fault.  Remember 
that I'm here.  When you need me I will come to you.  You have to go now.  
Seek out your lives with Fox.  Get him to help you, only him."

"Missy wait.  I don't understand.  Why Mulder, why not the Doctor...?"

"You and Fox take care of each other, you always have.  Only trust each other 
with this.  That's important.  You must not let Cancerman know what you find 
out.  Your bond is your strength against him.  Your love will keep you strong
enough to win this time."

"What do you mean 'this time'?"

"When you wake up go straight to Fox's room and tell him all of this.  Promise 
me, no matter what, no matter how much you try to convince yourself this is justa dream; you will go to him and tell him, all of it and I mean all of it."

"Missy...."

"Promise me you will tell Fox all of the this right away Dana."

"Okay but."

The dream began to fade.  Scully came abruptly awake in her hotel room
"Missy wait..."  she sat up looking around for her sister.  Wow, that was the 
most vivid dream.  Without another thought, she found herself out of bed and 
headed for the connecting door to Mulder's room.  She stopped with her hand on 
the door knob. This is stupid, she told herself, but the dream had been so real and she had promised.  What if he's asleep and I wake him up with this story?  
It's  Mulder, he's not asleep and he will love this story.  It's the kind of 
thing he lives for.  I should just go back to bed she argued as her hand knocked softly on the door.

"Mulder." she called softly.

"Scully?... come on in." He answered through the door.

She opened the door and walked in not sure how to tell him.  It all seemed so 
strange to her.

He was laying on the bed and sat up when she came in.

"Hi"  she started.

"What's going on?' he asked curious, she didn't usually just show up in his 
room.

She didn't know what to say so she just stared at him.

"Is something wrong?"  he got up and walked over to her.

"No, not really I ... just... this is...  I don't even know where to start."

"Just tell me." He said plainly.

She realized she was shaking.  This was all starting to get to her.  What 
if it was real?

He noticed she was shaking and put his arm around her, then walked over 
to the bed and pulled her down to sit next to him.

"Tell me."  he asked softly.

He listened intently as she explained her strange dream and how she really 
wasn't sure it was just a dream.  

"Well what do you think?"  she finished watching him for his reaction.

"Scully, I think that when you have an astral experience, you really have one.  I wonder what your sister wants us to find out?"

"So you think it was more than just a dream?" Of course he did after all this 
is Mulder. She thought.

"I might think is was just a dream, if I thought you were at all familiar with 
the theory of parallel lives and non-linear time.  Does any of that sound the 
least bit familiar to you?"  He couldn't believe he was having this conversion 
with Scully. 

"No, I've never heard of that.  You mean I didn't make it up?  You know what 
all this means?"

"It's a pretty common in western philosophy that time only runs in a straight 
line here on this plain."  He smiled at her a little then said,  "So are you 
going to let me regress you?  Want to find out who we were?"

"I don't know ... you really know how to do that?"

"Scully I'm a psychologist.  I trained in hypnosis and you know me, of course I
 would know about regressions."

"I ..."  she smiled back at that. "Silly me."

He put his hands on her shoulders and held her in his steady gaze.
"You trust me don't you?"

She nodded "Only with my life."

"Well then, don't you want to find out?  Aren't you curious what Melissa was 
trying to tell you, what she wants us to know?"

"Okay, lets do it, but I still don't know if I believe any of this."

"I know."  he smiled and laughed a little.  

That was the thing he valued the most about her and their friendship.  
She didn't have to believe it to let him run with it.  She would let him try to prove it to her.

She returned his smile and said. "What do we do?"

"Come over here and sit down." He guided her to one of the chairs then sat down across from her,  "You saw what Diane did when she regressed me and Melissa?"

She nodded her head.  Could she really do this?

"We'll do something very similar.  I'll start with some relaxation instructions and that will take you into a hypnotic state, then I'll instruct you to go back to other lives and tell me what you see and what is happening and we'll finish 
up by asking your higherself..."

"My what?" she interrupted.

"Your higherself...your spiritself; the essence of all that is Scully. The part of you that can look back on the life from an objective point of view and 
possibly tell us what it all means. I'll ask if there is anything else we should know to make sure we get everything that Melissa wanted you to know."

He knew she would think this was all too crazy.

"This higherself thing, why didn't the other Psychologist do that with you or 
Melissa Ephesian?"

It all sounded so strange, but after her dream she had to know.

"Like you kept reminding me through it all.  There really wasn't time.  I wish 
there had been."  He said, his voice held the depth of his regret and guilt.  
Maybe that aspect could have helped him deal with this better.

"Mulder don't, it wasn't your fault.  There was nothing you could have done 
for her."   She reached over touching his face briefly and let her hand slide 
down his shoulder.  

"I..."  he shook himself out of it.  "Ready?" he asked.

"Yeah I guess so."

"Wait a second.  We should tape this."  He got the recorder from his bag and 
turned it on putting it down next to them.

"Okay, I want you to sit back and feel comfortable...."

A few minutes later he when he felt she was deeply into a hypnotic trance he 
started the questions.

"I want you to go back, feel yourself moving back in time; back to a time 
before you are Dana Scully.  Go back there and tell me what you see.  You will 
be able to observe these things as a third person a spectator.  You won't feel 
any pain or fear; you are perfectly safe and you can return to now, at any time."  

He watched her breathing; it was deep and regular.  He thought briefly how 
beautiful she was.  She looked so peaceful without the normal stress showing in
her face.  If anyone had ever asked him to guess; he would have thought it was
Scully that was his soulmate. 
He continued,  "Go back now back and tell me when you are there."  He waited.  
Her breathing changed.  Her face looked troubled. "Tell me where you are."

"Poland it is night.  What a night a night of terror.  The Gestapo is rounding 
up all the Jews... taking us to the camps."

"Who are you?  Are you a man or a woman?"

"I... I am a man... an older man."

"What is happening now?"

"We are dragged out into the streets.  I am with my family...my daughter... you
are my daughter, and your son... he is so afraid. We are all afraid.  Your 
husband is there too...it is the one you know as Melissa.  His name is Sidney 
now."

This startled Mulder confirming something he had wondered.  

She continued,  "The Gestapo officers are there and they want to take you. 
They want you and your son.  I don't know why.  Their commander comes 
up...yes...it is Cancerman...he wants to take you away from me.  I argue with
him.  I try to fight him.   He pulls a gun and..."  her voice faded to silence.

"Where are you now tell me what you see?  Remember you are safe.  This is just 
a memory."

"I am floating above my body...it's laying in the street...my daughter is 
crying.  

The Gestapo officer looks down and laughs. 'take him' he orders. 
The other men drag Sidney away.... he points to you and my grandson 'them too.'
he says.  

You and my grandson are taken away with the others to be loaded into a
truck... gone. I am still floating above my body, there is more ... the
other officers come back and bring Sidney with them. 'You have done well'
the officer that is cancerman tells him. 

'You will get me out?"  Sidney asks.  

The officer says. 'You betrayed your own family and your own people, you are a 
coward.'  

Sidney is arguing with him. 'You said you would get me out... you
promised me...'

'Very well, but get him out of here.'  the officer instructs his men.  

I am rising higher now."

"Go back farther, move back to the next life we are together.  Are you there?"  he waited watching her closely.

"Yes."

"Tell me what you see.  What is happening?"

"We are both men,"  her voice had taken on a southern accent  "we are in the 
confederate army."

"What year is it?"

"1862."

"Tell me what is happening. Who are we to each other?"

"Friends, we have been friends for a long time.  We grew up together, joined 
the army together and we fight for the Confederacy together.  We are the 
closest of friends,  if you take my meannin'  At least we were 'til you met 
her..."  he tone was bitter and angry.

"Her?"  if they were both men why does she sound jealous?

"Yeah, Sarah.  She's a nurse....I don't like her...don't trust her....you 
ruined your career because of her?"

"How? Tell me what happened"

You were a Lieutenant...... you took off to see her .... to be with
her....AWOL they took your rank..."

"Move ahead now to the day we die...What year is it?"

"1863, it's Nov. 25th.  Damn it's cold.  It's going to be a long cold winter."

"What is happening?"

"We are ordered retreat to Dalton.  General Thomas is making a push and we 
can't hold them.  You don't want to go because of her.. Sarah..."
. 
"You don't like Sarah?" he questioned.

"No."

"Why?"

"She kept us apart.  She came between us."

"What do you mean?" he pushed.

"Oh... you know what I mean. You can't have forgotten that." Said with a
deep shy smile.

"We were lovers?"  he needed the answer it could mean a lot.

"Come on Sullie you didn't forget that did you?" she blushed then her
face changed and she continued.
"The field is red with the blood of the wounded and dead. I tried to get
to you... I tried... you were wounded... I saw you fall. I was
runnin'...
I am rising now. Floating above my body. Sarah is with you. You are
unconscious. The Federal Commander rides through the field straight to
Sarah... she is crying... he calls her to him....she doesn't want to
leave you...she goes to the Commander. He is... Cancerman. He tells her
she did well to tell him where the Confederate troops were hidin'... he
pulls her up behind him on the horse and rides off. You never knew ...
you never knew what she really was...you weren't dead when she left you.
She left you I wouldn't never have left you. I am rising higher now
higher."


....She left you I wouldn't never have left you.  I am rising higher now higher."

Mulder was trying not to think, not to try to figure it out, not now
while they needed to finish.

"Go back farther now, back to another lifetime where we are together. Go
there now and tell me what is happening."

"It's a beautiful day I am very happy... it's my wedding day... She is so 
beautiful."  

She smiled and looked happy.  It was a smile he had never seen on Scully.

Where are you?"

"Scotland, it's 1298."

"What is happening?"

"We are at the ceremony.  She is you ... you are to be my wife... the ceremony 
is beautiful.  We are so happy.  I love you so much... wait NO...."  her smile 
fades, replaced by a look of terror and anger that was an all too familiar.

"What?"

"The land baron has just ridden up...he is Cancerman...he is claiming
the right of Prema Nachta."

"What is that?" Mulder asked, although he was pretty sure he knew.

"The First Night, the right of the land baron to have the bride on her wedding
day, before her husband.... We heard the king had granted this to the barons 
but no one believed it would really happen... They are holding me.  I try to 
fight them, but I can't.  I can't go to you.... You stop me 'I love you, I'll 
come back to you.'  you promise me. He drags you up behind him and rides off."

"Move ahead, what is happening?"  It was harder to stay clam and detached than 
he thought it would be.

"It is night. I am sitting in our house waiting ... I hear the sound of 
horses.  The men ride up and drop something from one of the 
horses... NO GOD...."  she screamed, near to tears.

"It's okay, these are just memories. The pain is gone. You are only
observing. Tell me what is going on." He managed to keep his voice steady
and calming.

"You are laying at my feet... there's blood ... blood ... What did he do to you?   
I am holding you... you tell me you fought him,  you would rather be dead than 
let him have you... I know that you are dying.
'No don't leave me..'  You tell me that you will wait for me that we will be 
together always. 'Yes always...I love you' ...you're gone."  
Tears are streaming down her face.

"Go ahead now, tell me what is happening?  Remember you are only an observer." 

"It is two days later.  I have found the baron, I intend to kill him.  I call 
him to the field of honor... he laughs. I want him to fight me... He sends 
his men after me... there is a fight.  I tried.  I fought, they're holding me.  
The baron comes up and there is the flash of a knife at my throat.... I  am 
floating above my body now.  I watch as it falls to the ground.  He cut my 
throat.  I am floating higher... higher."

"Go back to another significant lifetime when we are together.  Go there now 
and tell me what is happening."

"We are in the desert... Egypt.  It is hot.  I am waiting for someone.  
I am sitting by the water.  It is my love that I wait for,"  

She had the most loving smile on her face Mulder thought he would die to have 
that look be for him.

"He approaches.  He is.. you ...  we are together... we are kissing...you are 
holding me...." her voice trailed off into silence.

"What are we doing?" he was almost afraid to know.

"We are making love." Her voice was soft and almost seductive.

Mulder smiled at the thought of it and the look on her face.  Her body seemed 
to be reacting to the remembered touch.  He wished he could touch her like that
 now.

"Go ahead now.  What is happening?"

Her face changed.  She looked afraid.

"It is rumored that the princess is angry. Her intended has refused to
marry her, he has another. Her father has sent his soldiers to find the
woman he was with. I am afraid. They will kill me if they find me. Her
father has let it be known that if the woman doesn't come forward he will
kill the future prince.... I must go. I can't let them hurt you."

"Now what are you doing?"

"I am approaching the palace.  I tell the guards that I am the one they are 
looking for.  I am taken in and thrown down before them.  The princess is
 demanding my death.  She is Melissa and her father ...is Cancerman.  
He tells his men to take us both and kill us....we are taken down to a chamber 
below the palace and thrown into a room... the door is shut and there is the 
sound of it being sealed.  We are to die here entombed... I'm afraid ... we 
hold each other and promise that we will be together always.  I am rising 
now..."


"Okay,"  he paused for a few seconds to take a deep breath and calm his nerves.
"I want you to keep rising this time.  Rise up and go between, to a place where
 you can talk to the soul that is Dana Scully.  To a place where you can look 
at everything that has happened and understand the meaning.  Is there anything 
that Scully would have us know?  What was it that your sister Melissa wanted 
you to know.  Do we have the answer?"

"You have your answers.  Melissa wanted you to understand the nature of 
soulmates. You didn't have the answer from your journey back, Fox.  
Your journey wasn't long enough to find the answers.  Some souls travel 
together in every lifetime; learning and growing together in all combinations 
and relationships.  Yes it is true you and Sarah/Melissa have shared lives 
together, you shared a great passion and you will again.  Perhaps to a better 
outcome.  She has much to learn. There are different lessons to be learned in 
each lifetime; Sarah/Melissa travels a different path from ours in most.  
We have been together from the beginning, yours is the soul that is the other 
half of mine.  Together, we are one.  We have fought the essence that is 
Cancerman for many lifetimes.  He has beaten us more times than not, but 

Mulder wasn't sure how much more he could take, this was exhausting. He waited 
and after a pause he decided to bring her back.. 

"If there is nothing more we need to learn, come back now.  Come back to the 
present life.  When I count to five you will return to me here and now.  
Remembering everything you saw and learned.  One, coming back, returning, 
Two coming out of it,  three almost here, four you are back. Five awake and 
here, awake and here now. Dana!"

Scully slowly opened her eyes and looked into Mulder's.   He was kneeling in 
front of her watching her closely.

"Hi," he said softly smiling at her, "welcome back." 
He ran the back of his hand down her cheek and slid his thumb over her lips.

"Hi...wow... do you think it was true?  Was I making that up?"  she didn't
 know what to think.

Mulder laughed, "You know you told me you would do this?  Try to disbelieve.  
Did it feel like you were making it up?"

"No" she shook her head and closed her eyes for a moment "It's just...if it's 
all true, it's so overwhelming it's frightening."

"There's no reason to be frightened by it Scully. It's really just you
and me. That's all it's really about." His voice was comforting.

"Mulder ..." she whispered, and without any thought on either part she moved 
into his arms. "When I think about how this feels I can believe it's all the 
truth.  This,"  she pulled back a little to look at him, "this, us, you and me; that isn't the part that scares me. This is the part that makes it feel true,  
that we are always together, but..." her voice trailed off.

"What?"

"Cancerman..."

"We can beat him this time; that's what you said."

"We can't let him kill us again." 

"You said that, this time together, we are strong enough.  I believe that to 
be true Scully, because when we're together I feel like nothing can stop us."

The intensity of what he said left her speechless.  She  was held deeply locked into his gaze.  They moved closer again and this time their lips met softly, 
gently, a slowly exploration of the feelings trapped for so long.  She felt 
his tongue slid over her lips and opened her mouth to him.  Their tongues met 
in a long gentle exploration; slowly pulling them closer until they were 
surrounded with unexplored passion so long ignored.

After a bit they pulled back to breathe; still holding each other close.

"I have to ask you something Scully?"  he whispered, his voice husky.  
He smiled a little, looking somewhat uncomfortable.

"What?"

"During the regression... the time when we were both men..."

She smiled at him guessing the question, but waited to let him finish.

"We were lovers weren't we?"

She nodded, holding his gaze to determine how he felt about it.
"Does that bother you?" she asked.

He shook his head, slowly moving closer his breath was a whisper on her face.  
"Not as long as he was you."

"Mulder."  She breathed as she leaned the hairs width to touch her lips 
to his again.  

Her tongue slid into his mouth finding his and sliding over it in a gentle 
dance.  After a bit he deepened the kiss then standing he pulled her up to 
her feet and against him, allowing her to feel his body's reaction to her.  
Her hands traveled up his back as she pressed against him.  His hands cupped 
her bottom pulling her tightly against him as he moved his hips against her.

Breathless they broke from the kiss; shocked at the passion flaming in each 
others eyes.

"I don't want to ignore what I feel for you any more."  She whispered when she 
could speak.

"It seems pointless now doesn't it.  We belong together Dana. We always have."

"I tried to pretend it wasn't there, but you're right it does seem pointless 
now.  I want you Fox... " she waited a breath and then.  "don't tell me I can't
 call you that."  She smiled seductively up at him.

"Dana.  I would have to be complete fool to tell you not to call Fox when you 
preface it with 'I want you.' and just to be clear, I want you too."

"We're going to make love now aren't we?" She asked her voice soft and
deep with longing, but still with that touch of disbelief that this was
really happening.

"Yeah," he smiled, that soft gentle smile that make her heart melt.  "I think 
so... because unless you stop me I'm going to do something I've wanted to do 
for a long time."  His eyes burned into hers allowing her to see how much he 
was feeling.

"What's that?"  her lips having trouble forming the words.

"I'm going to slowly and deliberately undress you and then touch you in
all the places I've been dreaming about for the past four years." 

She returned his gaze for what seemed like eternity to Mulder.  Had he said 
the wrong thing?  Was she going to kill him now?  

She wasn't speaking because for the moment she had forgotten how.  She realized
he was waiting for a response.  "Well?  She asked

"What?"

"What are you waiting for."  Her voice deeply seductive and then when he 
continued to look at her.  

"I..." he wasn't sure and the tone in her voice...

She interrupted his thoughts, "I'm not doing anything to stop you... am I?"

Mulder didn't say anything he just smiled at her and touched his lips gently to hers before pulling slightly away from her to untie the belt on her robe, 
then he pushed it off her shoulders and let it fall to the floor.  He moved 
behind her and slid his arms around her pulling her back against him. She 
closed her eyes and relaxed into his touch.  His hands slid over the silky 
material of her pajamas down her thighs and up over her stomach and then up 
to cup her breasts, teasing her already hard nipples.  He brushed her hair 
aside and her head fell forward  to let him explore her neck with his lips.  
He kissed and licked a trail of fire over her skin finding the most sensitive 
spots and lingering there. She sighed softly at his touch.  He unbuttoned the 
top and pulled it back exposing her breasts the feel of his hands arousing her 
with his every touch.  He teased her nipples with his fingers then one hand 
moved down into her pajama bottoms his fingers sliding between her legs to 
find her hot wet center.


"Ohhh god ...Mulder ..."  she moaned softly.

He looked up at her cry and noticed their completely erotic reflection in the 
mirror.  Her half clothed, head thrown back, lips slightly parted.  She looked 
so beautiful.

"Scully" he whispered, "Scully open your eyes."

"Hummmm?"  came her dreamy reply.

"Open your eyes and look in the mirror."  His voice hot in her ear his tongue 
tracing the outline and gently biting the lobe.

Her eyes slowly came open "What...?"  she focused on the mirror.

"I want you to watch me touch you."  He took her sensitive bud and pinched it 
lightly between them she cried out and arched against his hand.  Her eyes 
starting to close.

"No don't close your eyes just watch."  he whispered in her ear.

He stopped to slid the pajama bottoms down off her hips, then the top fell to 
the floor and she stood naked in front of him.
"God Scully you are so beautiful."

"Mulder you're still dressed."  Her arms came up to pull his head around so 
she could kiss him.

He didn't say a word when they broke from the kiss he just held her gaze in 
the mirror and began unbuttoning his shirt and removing it, next his pants fell
 to the floor and he kicked them to the side.  He slid his arms back around her
 and pulled her against him.  He breathed in the scent of her hair and moaned 
at the feel of her against him.

She reached around behind her and grabbing the elastic of his underwear pulled 
it off his hips to slid to the floor.

"That was a nice move." He breathed. 

"Yeah it was wasn't it?"  she whispered back.  She could feel his erection 
pressing into her back.

His hands roamed over her body his touch new yet so achingley familiar.  
Was it true that they had been together countless times in countless ways.  Was that why this felt so right.  Like it was meant to be?

His fingers found her center again and pressed deeply inside.  A soft strangled
cry came from her throat as she arched into his hand.

"It feels good to touch you like this.  To feel your skin next to mine.  Do you have any idea how long I've waited for this?"  he asked, his a whisper against 
her neck.

"As long as I have."  She replied,  "a few lifetimes at least."

"The Civil War..." he started his fingers found that sensitive place deep 
inside and pressed against it.

A strangled scream escaped her and then she gasped in a breathless whisper, 
"Wasn't like this."

He released her briefly to turn her to face him pulling her into a deep kiss.
"Let's try to remember,"  he said, scooping her up in his arms to carry the bed.

"Mulder"  she gasped in surprised.  It was such a romantic gesture she loved it.  
It was one of those little fantasies she'd always had.  It was like... Rett 
Butler and Scarlet O'Hara.  Fox Mulder carrying her... but it had only been a 
fantasy before.

"Fox"  he corrected as he laid her back on the bed and covering her body with 
his.

He looked at her for a long moment and then lower his mouth to hers in a long 
deep kiss.  His lips trailed from her mouth down to her breasts, where he 
finally sucked one hard nipple into his mouth and teased it mercilessly with 
his tongue pinching the other one between his fingers.

She gasped and slid her fingers into his hair to keep him there.  It felt so 
good to be with him like this.  To touch and be touched after such a long time.

His hands moved lower pushing inside her again and he was gratified to hear 
another long moan.  Just the fact that he could cause those sounds to come 
from Dana Scully was taking him to higher levels of arousal.

After a few minuets his lips followed along the trail that his hands had 
traveled and he covered her with his mouth tasting her for the first time.  
She cried out again the cries and moans were becoming almost constant and he 
knew she was close. He could feel the energy building in her she was right on 
the edge.  Touching her as he had been had him so ready he was almost in pain.  
He moved up.  The removal of his mouth and hands caused a cry of protest.

"Look at me Dana..."

She looked up into his deep passion clouded eyes.

"I want to watch you when we are finally together."

She nodded reaching down to take him in her hand.  The energy fairly 
crackled between them.  The years of ignored passion building on itself. 
"Now Mulder ..."  she whispered.  "Make us one now."

They both gasped and held their breaths as he slid slowly into her.  Their 
eyes reflecting what they were feeling; the love, the longing, the desire.

Supporting his weight on one arm he place his other hand over her heart 
right at the chakra.

"Scully all the energy we have between us all the power.  Take it, use it ,
while were together; let's both remember who we were.

He started to move, slowly at first, feeling their union.  Clearing his 
thoughts; so only who they were and what they had been could come into his mind.

Scully was trying to do the same thing.  She thought she understood what he 
meant about using the energy to go back to feel what they had always been 
together.  He moved within her.  The power building.  It felt so good just 
ike it always had.  

The flashes started.  They looked into each others eyes and the face was 
different.  The eyes were the same, but the faces ... Flash /  a woman with 
dark hair and dark eyes looking up at her and she was the man... Flash / a man 
with blond hair and blue eyes gazed down at him and he was the woman .... 
Flash / a man with dark hair and brown eyes looking down into her green eyes 
and she was also a man... Flash / two women with brown hair looking lovingly 
into each others eyes.  Flash / an oriental man and woman making love .... 
Flash / they were Dana and Fox and he was pushing  into her harder and deeper 
she was meeting him thrust for thrust their cries commingling into one and they
 slid over the edge and soared in a shared moment of passionate ecstasy.

Their eyes had remained locked on each other the whole time and now as the 
passion started to slow he leaned down to kiss her tenderly.

"I love you Dana."  He whispered his expression saying it as much as the words.

"I love you too." 

They held each other for a while then he moved off of her and they lay together still warped in each others arms.

"All those faces, you saw them too didn't you Fox?"

"Yeah"

"Do you think we were really all those people?"

"Dana, even if I knew for certain, I wouldn't change a life time...not even 
the one where we are both men."

"Okay so maybe I wouldn't even change the flukeman thing, but I still didn't 
like it."


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